Against elementary powers of judgment, I accepted an invitation from… - Dr. Holiday Wednesday
|Date:||March 23rd, 2009 02:39 am (UTC)|| |
It's been some time since I've seen words here.
So full of hate yet able to crack through it. And at least consider things and passing. Sobbing, not the action that I would have pictured of you, not at all.
Hate is a great many things, weapon, tool, driving force. I suppose it depends on what we do with it that really matter in the end. And giving you did not give into it, a man at that age would likely be no issue for you, father or no, to dispatch, it's hard to say just where it stands with you. But a desire to let it go. Very noble indeed.
Although it's come to my experiences that the best way to let go of hate is to pick it apart. Take the objects of your hate, and crack them down, find the why, not the perhaps, of why you hate them, and with that move to change it. Some things of course are to far or long gone to change, but at tat point it's a total coming to terms of the matter that is needed. In this case, a very important factor would be not to become the thing you hate; that being, in this case, a very begruffing, hard in ways and apparently self serving and focused individual. Perhaps a bit of a long jump, but...
An odd road is ahead of you, it seems. The person you are could very well make way for something quite changed, should you walk down it. Tho you will forgive if I lack any hope or faith that you will become warm fuzzies... Tho if such a thing should happen I will be first to turn my spine backwards and eat my own tail and wings.